So here's a little drawing I worked on to keep adding to the pile of ideas that haven't been connected together, yet. Let me tell you a little something, everypeople. There is a lot of discouragement to be had. That is just part of life. Sometimes, you just have to do the best you can do in any particular moment to get through your obstacles. Right now, all the ideas for this character and his story are so underdeveloped and scattered about that it keeps me feeling anxious and stressed. This often distracts me from the work because the ideas are so indistinguishable. It is easier to surrender to the notion that it is nothing because it seems like nothing. It is not a thing. I must remind myself that it is an idea.
Some ideas are almost palpable in that they are not hidden from us. These are ideas we often describe as obvious. Others are more hidden. Encountering those ideas take just as much, if not more, energy, concentration and work as any physical activity. It is more common, and easier, to not understand this quality of thinking and to carry on blindly.
Some ideas take a lot of work to develop and there will be hardships to suffer. You will spend days working out some concepts that will not end up in your final versions. You may give up on some ideas entirely for years only to realize that they come right back around in a new season and a new light. But you will not experience the opportunities that risks can lead to if you never even take the chance.
For example, the origin of Origen all started from a gut desire to start drawing characters. Just a simple desire. I just reacted to it. I did not study character design or animation in school. I am educated in drawing and illustration, which helps, but I am rather naive in regards to character design. My drawings of Origen expose this lack of experience in drawing a character consistently. Origen's head and face has varied from drawing to drawing. Some of it is due to experimentation because I am trying to figure out the best way to render him, but most of it is due to the lack of experience in designing characters. If I limited myself to the practices with which I am comfortable, I would not have come across the multitude of ideas for Origen and his story.
Recently, I came across the concept of a model sheet. I plan on doing one for Origen soon and that should help me keep to a more consistent form for him.
As for my comfort zone, I worked on this portrait to keep making more examples of the type of imagery I am able to make. Emily and I are planning on starting a shop to sell originals and prints of our work. One type of product I will be offering is portraiture.